Aug 30, 2009

Like being shot by a bullet

O' Allah...
I have so much burden right now
What should I do?
One by one they keep coming
piling on my shoulders
stalking me everywhere
making more and more creases on my forehead
disturbing my work
controlling my mind
I don't know how long I can cope
It's getting harder and harder.

I try to find peace by tadarrus
by talking with my family
by finding comfort from dear hubby
by smiling
but in my heart
I was at another two different places
one is making me loosing my enthusiasm
the other is surviving on a shoestring
What should I do?
I wish I hit a jackpot
but that's impossible.

O' Allah...
help me please...
help me to overcome this trials
sooner would be better
but it's better late than never.
I really need Your help
There's no one better than you to help me
I'm afraid I might loose my mind soon

The fitnah, the debt, the back biting
the haters
making my life miserable
I'm so afraid...

Show me the right way...
help me please
I need You.

10 comments:

Life's Balance Beam said...

As salaamaualikum warahmatuaallahi wa barakatuhu!


Bismiallahir rahmanir rahim,

Allahumma 'inee 'abduka, ibnu 'abdika, ibnu 'amatika, naasiyatee biyadika maadhin fiyya hukmuka, 'adlun fiyya qadhaa'wka, 'as'aluka bikulli ismin huwa laka, sammayta bihi nafsaka, 'aw'anzalatahu fee kitaabika, 'aw 'alla,atahu 'ahadan min khalqika, 'awista'tharta bihi fee 'ilmil-ghaybi 'indaka, 'an taj'alal-Wur'aama ranee'a qalbee, wa noora sadree, wa jalaa'a huznee, wa thahaaba hammee.

O Allah, i am your slave the son of your female slave, my forhead is in yout hand. your judgement upon me is assured and your decree concerning me is just. I ask you by every name that you have named yourself with, revealed in your book, taught any one of your creattion or kept unto yourself in the knowledge of the unseen that is with you, to make the Quran the spring of my heart, and the light of my chest, the banisher of my sadness and the reliever of my distress.

Inshaallah repeat this du'a constantly. and remember sis, Allah test those whom he loves. Dont let people get to you, because in the end Allah always reveals the truth. Feel better inshaallah and make as much du'a as poissible especially in the blessed month! take care sis. :)

Sasha said...

Dugaan diberikan utk menguji keimananan... Tahap kakchik dah tinggi, maka ujian pun level tinggi... Just bersabar & redha dgn ujiannya... Forget about apa org lain nak kata/fikir... sbb tak penting semua tu... apa yg penting'Allah'selalu bersama dgn kakchik... Allah tak lupakan kakchik & Dia mahu kakchik jd insan yg memiliki jiwa terbaik/bertakwa...

mmg mudah nak memberikan kata2... harap2nya kakchik bersabar n teruskan hidup dgn fikiran yg ceria & positif..

p/s: Sha nak rekomen kakchik baca buku 'The Secret' (by Rhonda Byrne)... sha suka menyesuaikan tools yg disyorkan dlm buku tu dgn ajaran2 Islam (doa)...

harap dpt membantu...

Kit Pryde said...

Doakan yang terbaik utk Kak Chik... esp may you gain the peace of mind and soul that you so long for (don't we all hahaha).

Hugs.

milla said...

Akk doakan agar Chik tetap tabah & sabar dlm menghadapi apa jua dugaan. Lapangkan hati, positif & ceria selalu....

p/s: maaflah akk tak pandai nak berkata2 sebenarnya...tapi ingatlah ALLAH sentiasa bersama Chik.

Hajar said...

Assalamualaikum Kak Chik.

There is so much anguish involved in your writing. Seek refuge from Him ,sis. May Allah S.W.T provide you the strength and ease you of your hardships.

kakchik said...

Life's Balance Beam - syukran jazilan sister dear for the do'a. I've copied it down and reading it almost daily. I really appreciate the help and the kind words.

kakchik said...

Sasha - terima kasih banyak sha. Kakchik masih insan yang lemah sha. Tahap keimanan sentiasa turun dan naik. Alhamdulillah hari ni kakchik sudah kembali kuat dan berjaya mencari ketenangan w/pun masalah masih belum selesai.

Buku The Secret tu kakchik ada cuma belum dibaca je. Insyaallah kakchik akan membacanya juga nanti. Sekarang ni hanya al-Qur'an saja yang dibaca, nak kejar peluang Ramadhan.

T. Ksh ya sha.

kakchik said...

Kit Pryde - thanks a lot kit. I think I've found it. Hugs for you too.

kakchik said...

kmilla - terima kasih juga untuk akak. Walaupun ringkas tapi apa yang kmilla tulis cukup berharga buat chik. Terasa masih ada teman-teman yang mengambil berat. Malu pula bila ingatkan seolah-olah mohon simpati orang je.

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam Hajar.

Yes, I was really upset before but I've overcome it and still trying my best to do what you've suggested. Inshaallah, the future is looking brighter sis. I'm going to treasure it before another turbulent wave come. Thanks Hajar.

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