Mar 18, 2010

Already missing him

Assalamualaikum and good evening everyone.

Firstly, I'm sorry if this entry would made you think that I am emotional. Well... yes, I am very emotional right now. Please do not read if you don't want to. I am just going to release my emotions here.

Source: My Space

After so many years of not being apart for more than a day, hubby is now somewhere in Kuala Terengganu attending some meetings there. He's appointment to go there came so late and too sudden for me to adapt to. I am already missing him. Someone from the State office came to our house at 11 this morning and took him to KT and tomorrow they might go to Kuala Lumpur. I don't know. The information that I have is too limited but I know he's with his friends.

You will feel the same if you have never be apart from your husband. Everyday when I get home from the office or from the bookshop he will always be in the house waiting for me because he's working from home. I can see his smile and feel his hug but now, the house feels so empty without him.

It's too quiet. And I am left alone with my load of working papers, assignments and my sickness, cough, cough. I wonder... this must be the feeling when your other half  is no longer with you. The loneliness and everything about him you will remember.

And the tears start falling down.

Oh, crap! I don't want to be like this. Insyaallah he'll be home by Tuesday. 

I'm gonna busied myself with lots of reading - can't read the Qur'an right now, monthly issue so I will fill it with books, internet, playing with my nieces and nephew, they are home for the school holidays. Once in a while I can text him.

And still, I miss him. A lot. May Allah take good care of you my dear. And please come back home safely.

12 comments:

zie said...

salam kak chik

sabar ya kak chik, sedih lak baca artikel kak chik. saya ni pulak mmg selalu kena tinggal jadi dah tak rasa apa2 hehehe masa anak kecik2 dulu mmg terasa sgt tapi bila anak2 dah besar ni dah ada kawan so tak lah terasa sgt...anyway rindu membara dan membuak2 kan bila berjauhan.just to share my experience ya kak chik ni hard feeling.

kakchik said...

wa'alaikummussalam zie.

terima kasih for your consolation words. kakchik tak biasa berjauhan dr suami. dulu2 masa awal kahwin selalu jugak dia tinggalkan tapi dah lebih 6 tahun tidak macam tu, jadi cepat la rasa sunyinya. anak2 pun takde. zie yg ada anak2 boleh hilangkan sunyi dgn mereka, untung orang ada anak2. takpe zie.. kakchik ok.

C said...

Alhumdullilah its just for a short time. When dh balik kampung I am left in Canada from anywhere from 3 weeks to last time 5 weeks. Next time he is planning for 6 weeks. Its so horrible but its for the sake of salatul-rahim so I have to just handle it. Sometimes being alone makes you discover new things about yourself though or do things that dh is not so interested in.

Candice said...

Aww... I don't know when he'll be back, but I went 6 weeks without my husband AND my toddler daughter last year! It was pretty hard, but I think if you focus on yourself and the time off and freedom you're getting, it will be easier! Spend lots of time with your friends and invite them over or whatever it is that you might not do with your husband at home! It will go faster if you take advantage of it! :)

سيده نفيسه said...

Assalamualaikum K.Chik. Sedih jugak baca entry kali ni.Sabar ye Kak Chik :)

theonekhalil said...

aww.. i'm sure you are stronger than that! He'll be back before you know it insha Allah :)

Nurul said...

Kakchik.

Hehe. U said 'crap'. Hehe.
Kakchik, sabarla. Nanti suami kakchik balik sure dia pun kata dia rindu kakchik. saya takder hubby lagi, jd xleh nak imagine perasaan kakchik. tapi ms arwah atuk meninggal, arwah nenek slalau diam je dah x mcm ms arwah atuk ada. yeah, i guess what u said is true :).
moga Allah tabahkan hati kakchik :)

kakchik said...

C, alhamdulillah... he's back already but tomorrow he-s going to KL for 3 days. But tak boleh compare with at all. I just can't imagine. And he just being offered to work in KL but we are still discussing the pros and cons about it. I wish I can go places while I'm alone but so many works to finish.

kakchik said...

Candice, thank you for consoling me. It must be very hard for you to be apart for 6 weeks. It's too long. Insyaallah I'm trying to accept this new situation because he'll be away more and more often now. I am going to make my days as busy as I can so that I do not feel that lonely.

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam Nafisah. Terima kasih sebab tolong sedih untuk kakchik. Alhamdulillah suami dah balik, sampai lewat pagi. Hehe, dia pun belum biasa berpisah lama-lama.

kakchik said...

asha, thanks. My wish has come true.

kakchik said...

Nurul,
lol, that word and sorry for using it here.
alhamdulillah suami dah balik tapi akan tinggalkan kakchik lagi esok. nak buat macamana, kena usahalah beradaptasi dgn situasi baru sebab kerja suami kakchik tu akan menyebabkan dia sering out station. selama ni asyik bersama je, sehari kena tinggal pun dah macam ni. memalukan je.

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