Jun 7, 2009

It is False Pregnancy

Assalamualaikum dear friends,

We meet again. Actually I was in a mix feeling right now after what happened yesterday and I'm sorry for taking out the previous post because I don't want to be misleading anyone anymore. I don't want to make more people feel sorry for me over nothing.

It was a FALSE PREGNANCY. I found about it today.

I feel so ashamed to write this as if I was telling lies all along because that was what I believed so far until a doc tell me that actually I'M NOT PREGNANT.

Sad, and sadder still to have to accept the news and THE TRUTH.

Please forgive me my friends for what I've lead you to believe. I also believe it until I know the truth. Although I went through most symptoms of a pregnant woman but they say it's only psychology playing with my body and hormones. I don't know.

May Allah give me strength and faith to tell people that I'm not pregnant for all those 9 weeks.

I am deeply sorry.

27 comments:

ellen557 said...

There is no need to make an apology - you did nothing wrong by believing what your body was saying.

<3

kakchik said...

Dear ellen557, thank you for the kind words. I'm crying while reading it.

Melda :o) said...

Assalamu alaikum my dear sister,

again, I am very sorry to hear about your news. Don't apologize, you didn't do it on purpose, in fact you did nothing wrong, you listened to your body...

My heart goes out to you, my dear sister, be strong and have sabr. Love you for the sake of Allah!

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam Melda. Thanks dear friend. It makes me feel more relief to hear that. I will be better and back as a happy person as usual. Insya-Allah.

malizea said...

aslam'aleykoum kakchik do not apologize sister!! may Allah helps you to be strong amine XOXO

malizea you're sister in islam

Hajar said...

Allahu Akbar! No need for the apologies dear sis. You have gone through so much and I really do not know where to start. Those news must have been shocking to you!

For now, please try to make peace with yourself and not dwell on it any longer. Insha'Allah sis, your wait shall be rewarded as long as you have patience. If you ever need someone to talk to, we're around for you. Take care ya!

xuen adyla said...

assalamualaikum kak chik

its ok... there is no need for an apology

i love ya... and i hope u will be strong..and if anything u wanna share..i can lend u my ears to listen, my words of advice to share, lend u my shoulder to cry on...anything for a friend like ya

UniMuslimah said...

Salaam alaikum sister,
It wasn't your intention to lie so don't apologize. You only told people what you believed to be true and you had no reason (to my knowledge) to doubt that. So no apologies are necessary.

Cheers.

kakchik said...

wa'alaikummussalam dear malizea. Thank you for making me feel better by writing those words.

kakchik said...

Hajar, thanks a lot sis. Yes, it was shocking but I managed to calm myself up until I see the face of my beloved. It's heart wrenching. However, I calmed down and remember that Allah is testing us and trying to built back my confidence. I know He knows better of what has happened. Thanks for your support my friend.

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam xuen. Those kind words makes me feel so grateful while the tears keep falling. I wrote this post to share my burden with you and all of you have been so dear to me. My shoulders to cry on. Love you too xuen.

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalm dear UniMuslimah. Crying and at the same feeling quite happy to read your comment and others' insyaAllah will help my emotional stability a lot. To find understanding friends supporting me is humbling. Thanks my friend.

xoxo, nadia said...

Dear kakchik,

Don't apologize (: I hope you are feeling better now.

milla said...

Salam Chik....
Jgn sedih ok...tak perlu minta maaf. Ada hikmah di sebalik semua tu, Chik tabahkan hati....relax ok...akak sayang chik.

Kitty Pryde said...

dear kak chik,

jgn la sedih2... and jgn la mintak maaf...

benda camni biasa kak chik... kit sendirik dh berapa kali tersalah tafsir...

sabar2 ye... jgn sedih2...

maybe bleh shopping sket2 buat abaya cam Oki ke... nak ceriakan hati tu? kehkehkehkeh.

kakchik said...

My friend nadia, alhamdulillah I'm feeling much better now. Don't worry, I'm gonna be stronger because I'm strong in faith and in health. Apologizing makes me feel better too.

kakchik said...

Wkslm Kmilla. Minta maaf tu sebab tidak mahu orang terus salah sangka. Alhamdulillah Chik dapat terima dgn baik dah. Trm ksh ya kmilla. Sgt2 dihargai.

kakchik said...

Kitty Pryde, Kit memang pandai membuat kakchik tersenyum. Terima kasih. Insya-Allah kakchik akan lebih berhati-hati slps ni. Nak gi shopping memang takde mood, cuaca panas sangat dan bandar KB terlalu sesak skrg ni.

Hiyabi.A.Fajirah said...

As-Salamu Aleikum ukhti, may Allah help you in this moment of sorrow, certanly He test us in this life. InshaAllha i'll make du'a for you among with all your cyber-friends.
Until my baby girl was so hard to us to get pregnant and to keep the baby safe because i'm negative blood so my body tend to attack the fetus, but Allah heard our prayers Al HAmdu lillah. And even if He don't He nows why...
Inna ma'a Al usriyusran...sura ash sharh
Love u dear...

Sasha said...

Salam Ceria Kakchik...

Tak perlulah nak rasa susah hati pasal hal ni yea, Kakchik... kami semuanya memahami apa yg kakchik rasa & lalui... kesilapan tu bukannya disengajakan...

Kakchik menaruh impian bukanlah satu kesalahan...

bahkan Sha yg dah ada anak dua pun dah lebih 5 kali tersilap perkiraan dlm hal ni... Ni benda biasa je kakchik...

Banyak nikmat di syurga yg sedang menanti Kakchik... kesabaran kakchik diuji hanya utk ganjaran yg lebih besar di akhirat kelak... Kakchik ni org yg terpilih tau... so cheer up... terima saja segala ketentuanNya... Dgn kejadian ni... kakchik juga dpt mberi wakeup call pd org lain supaya lebih bersyukur & menghargai setiap pemberianNya... temasuklah diri saya ni...

So... live ur life to the fullest... Hidup ini terlalu singkat utk kita disedih2kan... kan kakchik?...

Coffee Catholic said...

Hello! I've been away on holiday and I'm just now reading this. You've done nothing wrong thinking that you were pregnant. I've had a false pregnancy too ~ I could even feel something that was exactly like a baby kicking inside! Who can blame a woman for being excited at the smallest hint of possibly being pregnant? I hope all is well and you are well. God bless!

(Your hijab gift has not arrived yet... I hope it arrives soon so I can send it to you! Did you get my post card yet?)

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam Hiyabi.
Jazakillahi khair my friend for your du'as. I'm so grateful for just your kind intention. Oh, that was a very humbling experience sis and mine is just a small one. I know Allah knows best for each and everyone of us and I will always pray that one day He will grant my wishes.
Syukran my friend.

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam Sha. Insya-Allah kakchik dah ceria seperti biasa. Tambah2 kalau Sha datang menjenguk, hehehe. Terima kasih atas kata2 peransang & nasihat tu, amat bermakna sekali. Bila teman2 begitu memahami, terasa diri amat disayangi dan difahami. Jazakillahi khair Sha.

kakchik said...

Hi CC, I know of your holidays and looks like you've been having a great time. Well, I'm feeling good now and that experience is just a small one compared to others. Don't worry, I'm back with more enthusiasm for a bright future.

p/s: Your postcard have arrive a few days ago. WOW! Splendid postcard! TQVM my friend. And that hijab can wait.

umm ruman said...

Salam kak Chik,

You time will come kak Chik, I'll always pray for you kak chik because we all love you deeply.

kakchik said...

Wa'alaikummussalam kak Azah, thank you kak for the kind words. I will always try to concieve even though it's not as easy as others. I know there are many women out there who are going through the same situation as me. Hopefully I'll be strong in faith to live this life happily. Thanks kak.

Gail said...

Assalaam waliekum,
I would think the same way insha'allah my body acted the same way. I have had two miscarriages, so I know how you feel. I thought everyone was going to be disappointed with me because I told them I was expecting.
Yet a good friend told me if anyone was to feel disappointed it would be ME and it's not my fault for Allah SWT is All-Knowing and the Best of Planners.
May Allah SWT Grant you & your family success. Amen.

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